Sunday, August 13, 2006
i am beat. i have lost my appetite for the first time in a year. the weather was kind and in spite of poor organization the race was enjoyable enough. i'll never distract myself thanking the road marshall again, tripping over my wheels was kind of crazy. need to check clearer waters out, the ecp is so gross. there were quite a few familiar faces all around today, nice. good to know we're all out and about!noopne stopped me from badgering the pushcart lady!
hey now i remember what i'd wanted to say. besides looping tu es petrus in my head (pamugun didn't work nearly as well, it interfered with the breathing rhythm) and training my eyes on my miserable shadow i think there was pride in being young and alive and able and not having to wear crazy limbguards and just hopping on and plunging. i like being the unremarkable twenty-something who turns no heads and illicits no gasps as she does her own thing, quite unlike that retired warrior still on the road and inviting marvelling gazes. nah this is just my little celebration of youth.
yeah school's in! not for me, though. for those not in the know, am hk-bound and since term starts in sept i won't be leaving till then. in the meantime i'll have to get used to everyone else studying without me. i'm quite sorry i won't be there to break the new campus in with the rest, but hey, i guess it's just not my time : ) dropped by the other day though, it's cosy and i'll be looking forward to final year. like i was musing this headachy afternoon, going to school without everybody will take some getting used to, but.. but it's cool. i like how this phrase finishes sentences that i'd rather not (for whatever reason, reticence, laziness, etc.). like a conversational copout.
and so the holidays trickle to their end. i apologise for all this repetition you're seeing here - nothing much is happening i'm afraid. i'm ticking off the last of activities i've lined up for myself. there is a mild sense of accomplishment in doing so, coupled with.. see, coincidences. itunes shuffles to Chasing Dreams (yukie nishimura) on the piano just as i'm thinking, coupled with mild regret that i could have done even more.. hung out with my mom, read more or even played more piano perhaps. the crazier thing is that i couldn't actually recognise the piece, i just felt this urge to check whatever was playing.. i shan't bother explaining why it's weird in particular that piece came on, this paragraph's meandered enough. now that i'm paying attention, the rest of the emo stuff is driving me nuts.
evelyn at 9:15 AM
