Saturday, April 29, 2006
What do the folks think?
I wonder if my folks think I'm boring and spiritless etc. I think if I were my mom, I'd be quite disgusted.. you know? I'll think that my kid's so dull, she just does whatever I make her do really unwillingly and not very properly. But I know she'll continue cos she's halfway ok at it.. and she likes to collect all these third-party confirmations of that. I wouldn't like me much becuase I wouldn't talk to me, I'd just keep all these secrets from me, and whatever I know will just be whatever I choose to tell me. And I'll probably be pissed off that I don't stand up to me, not outright anyways. What an awful sort of kid to have.Alright it's particularly tiresome to be coherent about this, I shan't bother.
Remotely related: So I've been having trouble sleeping because - ridiculous as this sounds - I'm too eager to be awake. It's like my mind's just running and my body can't keep up ugh!!!! Speaking of body and fitness.. OK a sigh will suffice. I am ruined.
Hey I went off point! That wasn't even remotely related. This is, sort of: I realised the extent to which I did rubbish during the exams. I have a lot of crap in my computer now. Not crap as in useless stuff, but evidence of non-study. OK here I sigh; my grades are ruined. But, heehee. The idiots' guide to acrylic I'd found is very convenient of course. It's a bit sian 'cos my mom can't stop peering over my shoulder ("since when did you learn to do art? didn't you sister do it for you? thought you fail???") I mean, yeah that's all true, I really suck at this man, but it doesn't mean I can't mess around alright??????????? Although I must admit it took me a while to figure that out (the have-fun-even-though-you-suck-thing) but now that I have gained enlightenment, I can have a lot more fun, hurhur. Anyways have to learn to USE the stuff, like.. how to mix colours. I have z.e.r.o technique now. It's all very ugly and bad. Don't know how to use brush strokes either. THIS IS HELLA CHEAP HOBBY!!!!!!! (not really, but cheap for compromising beginners) Can't wait to find more medium to ruinnnnnnnnnnn. Teehee.
evelyn at 8:29 PM
3 Comments
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at 12:12 AM
said... so... pears or potatoes??
~y~-
at 9:22 AM
said...
hello loooooveee!!
hello from france!! youre not dull at all if not i wouldnt adore you as i do hee coming back soon but way too much french food oops sorry how any calories did i eat qlqs.
bye!-
at 6:16 PM
said...
hello dears!
~y~: i think only a bout of tubercolosis is going to help me out of this.
shoo: heee welcomehomeee