Sunday, March 05, 2006
totally exasperating myself:
lately i've been seized by some arty wind of fart and so i've been wondering, in particular, about this blog. that i came across some time during the exam period of 2004. yeah, that long ago. then the foodblog addiction was pretty much nascent so this craft writer got tossed out after say.. a fortnight of bookmarking? i was totally throwing my brain into chaos recalling her address, or blog title or whatnot and it was pissing the hell out of me the whole week, until i thought yeeha eureka i gotcha, but it turned out wrong. (although to my credit that wrong website was about the same nov 2004 era thing)anyways..... the story is that i got so irritated i googled like mad (till then i'd held off the searching cos it's like, fullfledged nuttiness), all the while thinking, damn babycakes! what if she's shut down? what if she's moved! did she have a kid? pass on while having the ki- Choyyyyyy!!!!! and yeah it's weird finding myself make the transition from wondering about her extension of herself to her person. i was actually faintly worried. and this was after a happy episode sharing about yet another lovely funny food page with an equally enamoured friend. it's probably time to start worrying when you're attached enough to sprout "oh yeah when i started reading her she was doing a course in france and now she's back in chicago armed with a cordon bleu dip!". it sounds mildly pathetic (or worse) but for most part it's like having an open story to read about real people and their real dreams. real chicken soup (and other nourishing stuff, haha) for the soul, i think. the sucky part is the reminder (and this i can do without) that i'm not paying real people in my own real life attention because of the necessarily real responsibility that tags along, and well, here is where i ought to stop and keep the remaining thoughts in my head.
anyways i do suppose the first bloggerlady in question is fine (because she's still Super Eggplant, for anybody who cares) and me, on the other hand, i've learned that some rewards are made the sweeter by waiting (for instance, till dratted homework is complete before i devour the damned site archives and all, preferably in one sitting.) so if anything, i've at least learned to prioritize since that monsoon of 2004 (because we don't get to call it winter, damn!).
evelyn at 4:00 AM