Sunday, November 27, 2005
Heh never thought I'd make it THIS far; it's finally the last day of the semester (tomorrow's just the curtain call!) and here I am, here I am, one day away! Where has my year gone?evelyn at 10:03 PM
Saturday, November 26, 2005
I have new bookmark folders existing side by side, Shop and Ship. Heh. Have been ignoring the latter (there only for motivation, internShip uh huh) and the former, of course has been growing too quick. I have a new folder (in the harddrive) expanding EVEN faster; no prizes for the name - Fash(Un). Geddit geddit? Look, cross off all the signs. Am kind of running on nothing now and getting through each day every day whining. Why is it so hard? Why have two and a half weeks zipped by but the last two days so slowwwwwwwwwwwww but HALT, march, COME BACK more time I need more time!!!! And yesterday one of the blessed souls they were clutching my notes (haa of course I exaggerate) and pride just welled in my heart I was just.. so.. touched and choked that SOMEBODY finds these things useful. Hahah very, very loserly (am still brimming in glee even nowwwwwwww.) but, well.evelyn at 8:04 PM
Wednesday, November 23, 2005
I guess I was just too dispirited. But finally climbed out of this rut (not thinking about the rest first) and yeah, constructing happiness is some kind of fun, and all I can say for now beyond that is that I'm so glad I ranted this morning and yeah, pity Hawaii but there was Praha and there'll be Xiamen and hopefully (hopefully hopefully hopefully hopefully) worse adVANtures. ; ) Christmas love in 4 days. So buzzed and comforted.evelyn at 9:02 PM
waking up to missed calls swearing at 2am, mismatched jc colours, a tinkling badge on my keychain. love so short, but forgetting so long - i see why you enjoy neruda now, and am quite sure those were your translations. : ) sweetest seventeen, forever.evelyn at 7:12 AM
Sunday, November 20, 2005
Coincidences. They kill me, they really do. Picking out symbolism in what would otherwise be an ordinary song stolen off a stranger's iTunes and finding more reason to be morose. Coincidence has this way of biting me in the ass, but the fact is I can see it coming.. I'm peering over my shoulder and almost willing it to head here for a feed.evelyn at 1:55 AM
Wednesday, November 16, 2005
The cluttered desktop. Surest sign of distress. Don't sigh with me my friends. Off am I to educate my little self. This is the last you'll hear of it (sorry to those who already have, too many times) but yes, yes nonono yes I've finally decided and extensive damage control definitely in the works. Good luck to you and you and daydreams of skiing summers, hiking winters but because some things can't change, mind/waistline expansions. Alright. Not a peep more.evelyn at 3:13 AM
Monday, November 14, 2005
You have no idea how comfortable it is to collapse onto Liangwei's underused clothesrack of an armchair with all the other friends scattered around their own designated spots too. Pretty much all I'm doing now and come to think of it, most of this sem, which seems to have been a determined normadic drift from bedroom to bedroom, grins. Even when am effortfully in townable clothes. Can't seem to muster much more energy to do more than lounge about. The tension in the shoulders draining itself away. This pause before the next bout of mugging actually kinda beats the holidays.evelyn at 10:13 PM
Sunday, November 13, 2005
guailan man gives me a guailan look as i slide the window open. guailan man paces out and back in, pokes his laptop a little more, guailans his wife, strides over to peer out of aforesaid window beside guailan me, peeks at my notes and mutters.The GMan: Walter Woon. Currently ambassador to Germany!
Guailan Me: Yessir, no sir, I'm not aware of that sir!
The GM: So what are you studying, law? I graduated there long ago. With my wife (jibes energetically in her direction.) I wanted to get to know her so I pretended to sell her books. (Leans forward.) You know when boys try to sell you books they want to get to know you.
GM, acting cute: Yessir every bit the sly lawyer you are!
A smile sneaks across his face as he wags his finger at me. But he gives himself away asking how busy school is just before he leaves and looking suitably unimpressed when I mention open-book exams. Ha. Nothing like an Old Punk. Feels like something my dad'd have done. Oh well. Anyways WW's finished with his German stint and is currently ambassador to Belgium.
ION. Going through Hindu law notes and finding out I once read them quite thoroughly. No, this isn't a gripe about how I've managed to forget both what I've read and that I've read it, but more about how I've forgotten my (almost-certain) glee over how Hindu law is environmentally friendly. These dreams of mine, they're good only for dying. : )
evelyn at 7:34 PM
Comments soon.
Tomorrow. Today.it's late. i'm typing with my eyes shut. i have a song ringing in my ears that makes me want to ram my head against a wall. i don't even think it means as much as i want it to mean. i'm awfully tired. i love telling people all the inconsequential things in my life. if you're hearing about it, chances are it doesn't mean very much to me. i love keeping secrets. i love divulging pretend-secrets. i love making you think something knoiwng it's not true. that's my secret. and we will raise a family/ i'll be the apple of our aprents' eyes and, they'll raise a glass to us, and i won't drink the bottle dry/they'll wake each mornign and they'll count our ? there' no relationship as strong as ours/ you'll find fulfilment and i won't ?a way and we will only get stronger/
i'm tired. thats' the song, it's the inbetween bit now, oh here it comes again. ouv'e got suspicions and ou sa, youv'e got proof/ and i am lost and, i am sad and, the lawyer's waiting so i'l meet you there and/they'll call our number and we won't put up a fight/we'll split the pension and i swear i'll see your ai?/where there is hate please let there be calm, before the storm besets us/yhou know i love you til the day i die and, i got my reasons but please odn't ask me why/we'll wait alone some nights and wish on falling stars/that no one maeks hte same mistakes as ours and/we'll enver share our prolems or talk our worries through and allhtouse little secrets will maek thier way to you/you'll find ufliflment i'll play and lose away and we, won't raise that family.
want the beginning bit? it's looping again. here it is. quite the lengthy introduction though. i got my feelings and i got my points of view the world is flat and, i still have a chance with you/god is good and, life is fair and, ehaven's waiting so i'll meet yhou there and / they'll call us daughteres daugh the kin.. oh lost. we'l wathc the dawn get mugged on chapel street and we, will raise a family. i 'll be the apple of your.. hey was this wehre i started just? or the chorus? am tired. goodnight.
evelyn at 10:17 AM
Friday, November 11, 2005
Grouch Watch
Hey folks. Not feeling rosily-dispositioned these days. So love me some and don't ask if I stubbornly refuse to be around; I'd rather that than snap (at you, in your face, in two, apart, Whatever.)Someone observed it's still 2.5 maddening weeks to the end of the papers, at which I protested (uncool as it is) in conditioned examination panic. But a long night later, I can only agree for all the wrong repeated reasons this fortnight's set to unfold itself quite hellishly. Aiyy, so much for resolution. As far as closures go this probably isn't too ideal, if it even counts. But I dare only write callously here.
ION. Hahah I can't think of other news. The life feels overrun for now, it's like finding out dreadfully at the end of the struggle it wasn't worth much. What's the point of cramming a whole sem and taking gleeful solace in control only to find still that all control does for you is spin away? Alright, let's try again. In other news, the papers are on. One in each week to come till November fades out. Christmas is coming! Will be caroling at a coupla hotels and the airport so if you're zipping out of the country make time for some cheer. Also baking cookies for some kids so, do volunteer yourself. You can choose to just sit around and make lovely conversation (oh not with us. With Other Lovelier Conversation-Makers) if you want. Not a Jibe at Jaliy, whatever you were thinking you were thinking wrong darling!
evelyn at 6:38 PM
Saturday, November 05, 2005
The alarmingly accurate
Colorquiz. I've gone at it quite a few times and this is the closest to home it's hit yet. Hahah I doubt they've been refining it over the years, so I guess the whole deal is that now I actually take time to click properly and peruse the results!Decisions, decisions. HK over Netherlands and Stockholm later? Who plans this far in advance? Should future money only be spent in the future? Giving up Broadway?
(Looks like it, 'cos am not upset at the thought, sigh. Musical whimsical! I think it was Sunset Boulevard that really slapped me in the face. Very gently of course, but really, there are too many talenteds in this world spending their lifetimes vying with genii. What am I beyond "irresistably drawn"? Even if it were just to be a faceless on the international stage.)
ION, now have wordy plans for December! Wondering about someplace nice to drag family off to in June, eh. Any ideas? Not too hot please. Woke up to daydreams (yeah seamless transition from nightmares) of cycling around Hokkaido etc. but that isn't mommy-friendly, and I won't be able to keep up with my sister, ha.
Since the exams are bearing their collective weight down on us, we must put some on in self-preservation - check this out: www.something-to-go.com.
Off to patch up prop notes which are embarrassingly skimpy. Why?!?!
evelyn at 6:45 PM
Thursday, November 03, 2005
Tricking into organization
Burp! Well. Some people have the worst fm taste in the world, Uncle Teo's painstaking responsibility hurt my eyes, there is too much chocolate in this room, these notes ought to print themselves, I really want to go home, Christmas is coming!, I'm rather tired of swimming. Don't want to go to school tomorrow, but it's the last day. Now now, no whining.evelyn at 4:12 AM
Wednesday, November 02, 2005
this is where we let the hair down
this blog grew out of a 10-minute interest in a very (act) cute nemo template which, as you can see, has been replaced by something a little more predictably me. not that it means i know what noodleboy is, but at least you get to read something else other than me : )evelyn at 12:32 AM
Tuesday, November 01, 2005
Swimmering and stavering
Liiiiike real. Merrily whiling a bit of an hour away before my motha she comes to pick me up. Very rare occurance, so it's worth blogging (my mom, not wasting time). Haha honestly just about everything seems worth blogging now that I've got a newwwwwww layout. Yayyyyyer for free entertainment?Because i have no more originality, I must quote myself - Nothing like the exams to kickstart interest in everything else.
Now, the great news for today (more stars aligning) is that there is yet another internship up for grabs and I'm quite enthusiastic : ) Because it is at Springleaf Towers which! happens to be where my sister is about to start her new kickass job. I don't think we'll be hanging out much actually. But it is very in line with my new determination To Be A Better Sib so I shall apply for the 50 mins that we'll miserably groan together to work? Of course I'm not crossing fingers that she'll drive; what were you thinking! And amongst other 20%shuddup reasons of course : ) Shhhhh. Wish me luck!
evelyn at 8:16 PM